Inside That School

It seems a little silly that something like my baby starting Kindergarten could bring me to tears as quickly as it has been able to the past 24 hours, but I have totally fallen victim to the whole "how is time going so incredibly fast" thing.

You see, I am pretty sure it was just a few days ago when I was holding each of my boys in my arms and swaying them back to sleep while we danced and rocked in the middle of the dining room of our old apartment listening to Elton John's "Your Song" on repeat. And I think it was only hours ago when I was feeding them their bottles in the rocking chair and staring at their brand new selves wondering what I did to deserve a love like this. I swear they just took their first steps, and just said their first words and just said "I love you" for the first time...but apparently I'm a little off. Because apparently all of that was actually 5 & 8 years ago and apparently they had to start  school today and apparently I was never going to be emotionally equipped to handle any of this.

Honestly.

The Truth About Moms

If there is one thing I am very certain of in life, it is that I, in NO way, truly appreciated the value of my mom until I became one.

I wasn't ungrateful (well, actually I probably was ungrateful, but it totally wasn't intentional), and I didn't discount everything she did (well, I probably did, but only because I had no idea what it actually took to do what she did), and I didn't think what she did was easy. But, I definitely didn't know how grateful I truly was, or how much she really did, or how difficult what she did was until I was fortunate enough to become a mom.

I was clueless, really. I mean honestly, there was just no way to know until it was my turn. Even if you think you are prepared, even if you read all of the books, listen to all of the stories told by those who have traveled this road before you, even if you paid attention to and tried to remember all of the things that your mom did that made you feel as loved as you were...there is no way to know what it takes to be a mom until you walk down that road.